If there is a God, I think he should really appreciate the fact that I spent 9 whole hours working at KALX today. I could have studied for my gargantuan history midterm, or done my heinously large CS project, but instead I helped our little fundraiser move itself along smoothly.
So now I'm tired as a motherfucker, and I'm scheduled to study history at the FSM at 7. All I really want to do is go home and sleep. And, y'know, maybe masturbate or something.
Life is kind of this cruel endless cycle for me at the moment. When there's work, there's always too much of it, and it comes crashing down at the most unappealing moments. And when there's no work, it's the doldrums, with all of my friends off doing something and me sitting around by meself.
I don't mind working when I'm into what's going on. CS projects I can handle, and I guess I can handle quality history readings as well. But there's a bit too much of it in too short a period of time. And right now, I'm just ready to sleep. Damn it.
Recently I've also been inspired to start designing a new web page. The only problem is, I want it to be really damn good. After scoring consistently higher than my friends on CS midterms, I feel like I should be able to do Perl and CSS and make a rockin' web page. Someday, i guess. Not this weekend, but maybe the weekend after that I can get started. And maybe the whole concept of planning in this manner is flawed. If I don't get it done, I'll be a disappointment. If I don't explicitly plan, than I'll just be unfulfilled.
I can plan how I won't plan. Yay second derivatives!
