Wow, it's been a while since I've updated this thing. As it is, I'm pretty tired and incoherent right now, so use logical reasoning to determing what I should say rather than what I do say.
It all started way back when the power went out, which was incredible because all of Berkeley pretty much shut down. I stayed up until 1 AM playing the guitar, it was actually pretty cool.
This is a pretty tough week - I just finished up my CS midterm, which was pretty hard, but not too bad. I think I'm going skiing this weekend, which implies that I have to finish all my homework before I leave, which simply makes me cringe. I've got a lot of it. Plus, there are all these club meetings that I've skipped for various reasons.
I basically skipped my SSDP meeting to hang out with Linshuang, who basically just went to sleep as soon as she came, promising to come back later. In the CS world, there is a word for this. ":-(" Someone also asked me, for what's the first time in a while "Can you please leave?" which really just perturbed me. I can't remember the last time someone asked me something like that so directly. It probably wasn't anything big, but it makes me wonder. I've been a bit of an ass lately - pretty self-centered and focused only on things I deem productive (that, or slacking off). I mean, I guess that's what I do anyway...but no random acts of kindness recently.
I've been a bit of a violent poker of Jenn recently, which is bad, because she's helpless and almost always sweet as pie. I know it's going to come to the point where people just say to me "Alex, cut it out" and I'm going to say "OK" and go home and cry irrationally. It's a pretty stupid thought process, but it's still there. I guess even the mighty forces of logic can't strip that from my brain. Maybe that stupid maturity thing will kick in...
I'm in a bit of a haze right now. I feel almost like I'm living my life from afar - I feel emotionally and mentally separate at this moment in time. Guess I need sleep.
All of my wall decorations have been falling down at an alarming rate, and I haven't been able to put them back up because I'm too lazy. Damn laziness.
Damn that CS midterm I just took too. I always make so many dopey mistakes, and I double checked my midterm too. I don't want others to feel bad though...hate to rub it in. Ick. Music went poorly today as well. Hm...I need to focus on what I enjoy and what I'm good at. I used to think it was CS, but maybe I should reconsider.
Ah, I should provide songs as well.
Q and not U - Little Sparkee
James Kochalka Superstar - Genius
Dismemberment Plan - Superpowers
Smoking Popes - Midnight Moon
Super Furry Animals - Run! Christian, Run!
