I would like to apologize for the fewness of my posts, because my internet connection has been spotty and I've been unable to repair it (or move my lazy ass into the next room and use that computer).
OK, to begin with, I'd like to talk about what may be the dumbest thing I've done in a while. I walked into a wall. And I hit the bone just above my left eye. And now it fucking hurts.
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God, I'm sorry about that. I tried to be interesting and I totally failed.
Anyway, right now I have several weeks on my hand without any pressing obligations. I'm not quite sure what to do. I can read, or just jerk off a lot, or watch movies, or record things, the list goes on and on. But I feel like I've been vacillating between complete inspiration and complete languidity (or is it languidness?). Case in point: last night, I was up until 6 in the morning recording songs. I was totally enthralled with my voice (which in retrospect wasn't too enthralling), and I woke my brother up singing "The Wind that Shakes the Barley", an old Irish folk song that's pretty decent. It's totally outside of my range, and unfortunately (or is it fortunately?), I didn't get any of it down on the computer.
I'm thinking that it might be fun and somewhat worthwhile to record an entire album while I'm here, just because I have the opportunity. Maybe a live album, because I certainly need to work on the performance aspect of my music. But since there's nobody to listen, I'm thinking of calling it "Audience of None". That's kind of witty, right? Yeah, sure.
I'm also trying to write a song every day, just so I can produce a bunch of crappy material and hopefully some good stuff too.
I'm looking over the lyrics of the song I wrote today, which is my best of the vacation. But even it is pretty banal.
Just call me
We'll hang out, I'm really great
We could stay out pretty late
And watch a movie too
Just call me
I'll shave and even brush my hair
Go out looking like I care
It would be real fun
Hm. I hope it sounds better in person. Maybe I'll redo the lyrics for something a little bit more angsty or depressed. This just resounds with shit. But I think the chords and tune are pretty good, so maybe that's what I'll do. It's just kind of extreme I guess - because that's not really who I am, this socially obsessed, nobody-loves-me-I'm-so-unpopular-but-wish-I-were-popular kid. At least, that's not how I envision myself.
Does it defy the creative process to recreate works to go along with my own self-image? Hm...
Maybe when I'm not so lethargic you can hear how my new equipment sounds, and I'll upload some of my new stuff. But for now, sleep? Or something more exciting...?
Howie Day - Sorry So Sorry
Desaparecidos - Happiest Place on Earth
Cursive - Northern Winds
John Vanderslice - Time Travel Is Lonely
Paris, TX - Razor New Neighbors
Yeah, that last entry was pretty good. Unfortunately, I'm pretty tired right now (Eastern time zone, so add 3 hours to the update time, and that's where I am), so I'll just do a mini-entry.
Oh. I should talk about these in a little more detail, at least my big event. I tried to sing my big song to people (Go listen to Zen Motherfucker) and I did so shitty. I felt really bad singing, and I fucked up the guitar, and just got all nervous. It was no good at all. It's going to take a lot of confidence rebuilding before I play for people again. Or will it? Cuz I broke down the wall and fell into a pit, but at least there's no wall anymore.
Yeah, that's how tired I am.
Maybe you get more later.
Howie Day - Madrigals
Hanson - Mmmbob (Hey, it only has two chords in the whole song, easy to teach people...)
Beatles - Blackbird
Built to Spill - Kicked it in the Sun
Weezer - Pink Triangle
